Suicide, It's Not the Answer

    I don't about you, but I often feel like giving up. I get overwhelmed easily (Thanks to my mind which never stops running in circles). And I often wonder what it would be like to go to sleep and never wake up again. But that's not the answer. I know it's not the answer. Yet my mind still tends to wander there. That is when I have to turn to a higher power. Jesus. He is the only one with all of the answers. And if I take my focus off of Him, I start to sink in the waves of change. In this, the vast storm of life, I often lose my way. But  Jesus is standing there. His hands are reaching out towards me. He pulls me up out of the murky depths and holds me in His arms. He is my place of rest. My strong tower.

  I know I can't quit. I can't give up on life. God still has so much for me to do. I want to see His plans for my life fulfilled. I know He will lead me safely through the storms of life and to the shores of Heaven. But I often get discouraged. It's like no matter how hard I try, I still do something wrong. But God is not sitting on His throne keeping track of everything I've ever done wrong. He is working in my life. He is working for my good, which is why I cannot give up. He is not finished with me.

  I've had the thoughts. More like the screaming voices inside of my head telling me to end it all. But Jesus quiets these voices with His soft whisper. He whispers that He loves me. That He is going to turn my pain into a masterpiece. I am still waiting to see that masterpiece, but maybe it's not meant for me to see. I know my pain cannot be for nothing. So I'm simply trusting God. It's not easy though. I doubt it will get any easier as life goes on.  But I'm doing it anyway. Good things do not usually come the easy way. You can still have a good life even if it's not an overly happy one. You can choose to make the most of it.
 
   Wallowing in self-pity never helped anyone, and it will not help you or me. Decide that you are going to let God turn your pain into a tool to help others. That is the greatest satisfaction you could ever get out of life. It's the only true satisfaction you'll ever get. But whatever you do, don't give in to those thoughts. They won't go away until you make them go away. And even then they will try to sneak back in. Your life is worth the blood of Jesus. Don't let Satan steal that from you. Put the Devil in his place, beneath the feet of Jesus.